this is a true story of a bitch who dump his nice bf instead of staying with him forever.she dunno the real reason she broke off actually but she juz wanna broke off.she dun even understand why she did that but she had done it.she hurts dat guy's feelings terribly and she feel so miserable nw for hurting him so bad.what can she do,like wat malay ppl aways said,'nasi sudah jadi bubur'.
its all her mistake and fault and she admit all was her fault for leaving that guy without a good reason.she uses some other excuse to broke off wit him when she in fact confuse whether she still love him or not.she was juz so confuse with all these and the thing that make her made those decision are bcoz of her restlessness of sumthing.she worries tht her bf was having an affair with someone else and she said she dunno how to treat his bf also.she was juz too worried tht she couldnt treat him well and that is the reason why she'd left him.i heard that was the real reason she left him.she still feel sayang to that guy oso but she couldnt express her feelings,she juz couldnt.she dunno what is the reason that she cant tell her true feelings but she juz couldnt do it.by the way,this girl was actually having some breathing probs these few days and she doesnt even told his bf(nw her x-bf) dat she got some respiratory probs.she have to go see doctor for some check up but she didnt do it.the reason is bcoz she know that the doctor will send her again to the cardiologist and go for another heart check up and all the people there will juz stare at her and feel pity for her for having such terrible sickness when she's still young.she almost cried the last time she went to the cardiologist bcoz most of the patient and even the nurses asked her to be strong.nobody knows how she feel at that time,even her parents doesnt even know she went for the check up.she was a brave girl who brave enuf to go alone and finding out she have to go for heart check up.she had this sickness when she was still in kindergarten.
now she juz hope that when she goes to the hospital the result will still be the same as before.she dun wanna die so early bcoz there are lots of other things tht she wanted to explore.she can make it through everything alone and though her x-bf suspected she got someone else she dun mind.she said that as long as she's sincere its enuf.she juz want ppl to be happy in their life.if she is not happy oso she wont mind.she's fine living alone bcz she's use to it...
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Monday, December 15, 2008
i juz did something unexpected today,tonite.i know its all coming back to me and it is all my fault and im trully and deeply sorry for what i had done to you.im so sorry.i know its my mistake and hopefully i can fix my own feelings soon...
i need to gather all the ingrediants i needed now and blender it together and drink it as a potion to cure my 'sickness' that i know you will labelled it as being a childish.im so freaking sorry for what i had done.so so sorry.i have no one now except my parents,friends & teddy bears.
i need to gather all the ingrediants i needed now and blender it together and drink it as a potion to cure my 'sickness' that i know you will labelled it as being a childish.im so freaking sorry for what i had done.so so sorry.i have no one now except my parents,friends & teddy bears.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Penang Starwalk 2008
Today is the Penang Starwalk 2007. It started at the PDC near PISA. The registration was around 6am until 6.45am and we just waited for the race to start. We started the race 7am sharp and i ran on my own without anyone bugging me all the way. It was fun walking with a bunch of strangers though coz we can make new friends and enemies!haha...i met my enemy today,this guy who keep on fasting his pace so that he can catch up with me. So basically he was my enemy at that time and based on that i continue to maintain my pace with him and i speed the moment we're reaching finishing line. He was in front of me though the time we reach Jln Tun Dr.Awang and he was really far ahead from me but i guess he got tired and keep on getting slower and slower. At that time i take that chance and i used all my energy that i save for the finishing line for a last battle with him and i think i've won him coz after that i didn't see him oledi. I wonder what happend to him though......
Neway,after the race all 'Starwalkers' went into the main arena building for a lucky draw and the announcement of the winner of the day. The place was crowded with people who were highly hoped that they could get a piece of the prize and that include me of course. The time that we waited had reached and the lucky draw began and you can clearly see that all the faces of the Starwalkers was fill with high hopes. All of us got all excited of the prize which includes stuff from Panasonic,the Grand Prize from Suzuki and some other gifts from the sponsors of the Penang Starwalk. There are also some extra gifts given by airlines in Malaysia like Firefly, MAS, AirAsia, China Airlines and Ave Airlines(if im not mistaken). When they said that they were giving airline ticket to the lucky winner we even get more excited! First it start of with Firefly who give ticket to destination which are considered considerable for the airline itself and the same goes to AirAsia. Then it was the time for MAS where people were imagining airline tickets which reach to unexpected destination which are exciting. The first ticket that were given was a big surprised!! Guess what,they give 2 return ticket PENANG-KUALA LUMPUR-PENANG!! The moment that we got excited to hear the place we got so shocked that after the destination was announced all Starwalkers 'booed' towards the MAS manager and to the airlines itself. We were booing the airlines and laughing our ass off when we heard the destination. Even the mc also laugh and couldn't say anything.hahaha!!!we really laugh our ass off! The same goes to the other not-so-famous airlines,Ave Airlines. It give return ticket KUALA LUMPUR-TAIPING-KUALA LUMPUR! Wat the heck!!! We booed them again!
At the end,i didnt get anything and the same goes to most of the starwalkers also but we still enjoy our hearts out and I can feel that there is no such thing as RACISM exist at that time and i feel kinda proud to be PENANGITES! A true Penangites will not practice RACISM though some of people will still say that racism will still exist in our heart no matter what. The thing that makes people practice racism was bcoz we have that small thinking of fearing other races. If we take all of us as one family and have no fear of each other it will be fine. It all depends on the way we think and how we digest all those things in our mind. Im a Malay and im proud to tell that my 2 best friends are Chinese and they are being really good friend to me and i really appreciate them. I dont care what people say everytime i hangout with the both of them. Im proud to say also that 2 of my best buddies in college are consist of Chinese and Indian. This really shows kemuafakatan kaum. Please remove the sense of RACISM from our hearts.
PS: To my mom,never underestimate your daughter ya.i told ya i can walk for 10km!i was just hiding all my strength from you all this time. Im so loving this Starwalk!!!
Neway,after the race all 'Starwalkers' went into the main arena building for a lucky draw and the announcement of the winner of the day. The place was crowded with people who were highly hoped that they could get a piece of the prize and that include me of course. The time that we waited had reached and the lucky draw began and you can clearly see that all the faces of the Starwalkers was fill with high hopes. All of us got all excited of the prize which includes stuff from Panasonic,the Grand Prize from Suzuki and some other gifts from the sponsors of the Penang Starwalk. There are also some extra gifts given by airlines in Malaysia like Firefly, MAS, AirAsia, China Airlines and Ave Airlines(if im not mistaken). When they said that they were giving airline ticket to the lucky winner we even get more excited! First it start of with Firefly who give ticket to destination which are considered considerable for the airline itself and the same goes to AirAsia. Then it was the time for MAS where people were imagining airline tickets which reach to unexpected destination which are exciting. The first ticket that were given was a big surprised!! Guess what,they give 2 return ticket PENANG-KUALA LUMPUR-PENANG!! The moment that we got excited to hear the place we got so shocked that after the destination was announced all Starwalkers 'booed' towards the MAS manager and to the airlines itself. We were booing the airlines and laughing our ass off when we heard the destination. Even the mc also laugh and couldn't say anything.hahaha!!!we really laugh our ass off! The same goes to the other not-so-famous airlines,Ave Airlines. It give return ticket KUALA LUMPUR-TAIPING-KUALA LUMPUR! Wat the heck!!! We booed them again!
At the end,i didnt get anything and the same goes to most of the starwalkers also but we still enjoy our hearts out and I can feel that there is no such thing as RACISM exist at that time and i feel kinda proud to be PENANGITES! A true Penangites will not practice RACISM though some of people will still say that racism will still exist in our heart no matter what. The thing that makes people practice racism was bcoz we have that small thinking of fearing other races. If we take all of us as one family and have no fear of each other it will be fine. It all depends on the way we think and how we digest all those things in our mind. Im a Malay and im proud to tell that my 2 best friends are Chinese and they are being really good friend to me and i really appreciate them. I dont care what people say everytime i hangout with the both of them. Im proud to say also that 2 of my best buddies in college are consist of Chinese and Indian. This really shows kemuafakatan kaum. Please remove the sense of RACISM from our hearts.
PS: To my mom,never underestimate your daughter ya.i told ya i can walk for 10km!i was just hiding all my strength from you all this time. Im so loving this Starwalk!!!
Friday, December 12, 2008
Is it ok for me to dump my boyfriend?
That is the question that most of my friend would eventually think if they think that they had enough of their partners.Well,it actually depends on theirself you know and only them can decide on their own.I'm talking like this but the thing is im the one who got confused with all this.oh well, i guess i have to figure out all this on my own.I think im better off alone,i really need to be alone though.I prefer to be alone coz i will have that freedom not to worry about anything or worry that the other partner of mine would agree or not with my decision.It's kinda difficult to explain but i think im having a major probs with my love life now.
I dun say that I hate guys,its juz dat they don't really have that factor that can make me attracted to them,well except mph(my dream guy).i wonder how is he doing now??what he's doing...how his life...how his work...and lots of things I wanna know.I dunno whether I can still find him at the same spot though but i think I wanna give it another try maybe this week,this Sunday??well,if im not tired than i will go coz I have to go for Penang Starwalk.for other week im out of town also for a job.
That long week will give me time for me to think about my life.I do need to get out of town also and I think this is a good opportunity.Oh ya,december is coming to an end soon which means dat result are coming fast too!hope i pass all papers.i really need it!
I dun say that I hate guys,its juz dat they don't really have that factor that can make me attracted to them,well except mph(my dream guy).i wonder how is he doing now??what he's doing...how his life...how his work...and lots of things I wanna know.I dunno whether I can still find him at the same spot though but i think I wanna give it another try maybe this week,this Sunday??well,if im not tired than i will go coz I have to go for Penang Starwalk.for other week im out of town also for a job.
That long week will give me time for me to think about my life.I do need to get out of town also and I think this is a good opportunity.Oh ya,december is coming to an end soon which means dat result are coming fast too!hope i pass all papers.i really need it!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
a buzy buzzy day today
Whoa...today i didn't have any rest at all.i was going around Penang island,well half of it.1st i go to PISA to pick up my goodie bag for the Penang Starwalk for this 'Shonune Sunday'. I was expecting that there will be lesser ppl in the noon but i was wrong.lots of ppl are queing up to get their stuff.and i was standing in front of a lady with a kid and oso a grandma on the side.this lady was not so annoying but later on when she kept on turning and shaking off her head it really pissed me off and annoyed me.i know la the fact that she got a very bouncy pony tail but she dont have to constantly show it to me!i fucking kena her hair lots of times until i feel or you can say that i imagine of chopping off her pony tail!God,dat was the most annoying thing at that time.
Harini jugak aku pergi ke Gurney plaza untuk bershopping buku belajar bahasa asing.so,aku decide untuk cari either buku hokkien,french or spanish language.aku jumpa semua buku tu tapi disebabkan harga yang kurang berpatutan esp untuk kamusnya aku terpaksa batalkan niat untuk beli beserta kamus sekali.hehe...akhirnya,aku hanya membeli buku Penang Hokkien Dialect dan Simple French by Europhone Language.hehe..aku suka beli dari company Europhone coz dulu aku punya set belajar bahasa inggeris pun dari Europhone cuma lebih lengkap dari French language ni la.
yikes!!aku terbagi jatuh modem aku pulak!aku rasa duit aritu kerja dengan pdaexpert aku dh dapat tapi agak mengejutkan aku dapat agak banyak jugak.hehe...rasa macam aku dapat rm50 gtu.cool!!kalu la aku dpat cpai target hari tu lagi bagus.leh dapat lebih kurang rm200.huhuhu....tapi xdapat.so too bad...
Harini jugak aku pergi ke Gurney plaza untuk bershopping buku belajar bahasa asing.so,aku decide untuk cari either buku hokkien,french or spanish language.aku jumpa semua buku tu tapi disebabkan harga yang kurang berpatutan esp untuk kamusnya aku terpaksa batalkan niat untuk beli beserta kamus sekali.hehe...akhirnya,aku hanya membeli buku Penang Hokkien Dialect dan Simple French by Europhone Language.hehe..aku suka beli dari company Europhone coz dulu aku punya set belajar bahasa inggeris pun dari Europhone cuma lebih lengkap dari French language ni la.
yikes!!aku terbagi jatuh modem aku pulak!aku rasa duit aritu kerja dengan pdaexpert aku dh dapat tapi agak mengejutkan aku dapat agak banyak jugak.hehe...rasa macam aku dapat rm50 gtu.cool!!kalu la aku dpat cpai target hari tu lagi bagus.leh dapat lebih kurang rm200.huhuhu....tapi xdapat.so too bad...
Monday, December 8, 2008
the sickness i bare
I've been suffering this sickness all this time,as far as i remember since i was a kid and it came back again.i dunno what sickness im having but it was haunting me after i became a lactose intolerant.
This sickness was kinda worst when i was around 6 years old.everytime i did any rough activities or excercise it will bcome worst.i climbed a small hill oso it will be difficult for me to breath,'semput' like what Malay people say.but due to a constant meeting with a good doctor,my sickness was gone already.
But this few years especially in 2005 it came back again.i couldn't breath on certain times.during examination time it became worst.This sickness continued till now and i can't really breath on certain times.These few days it became even worst than i expected.
Today i caught a terrible headache.i hate the headache!!!go away you bastard headache!but after sipping a nice cold soya bean drink it feels better...
This sickness was kinda worst when i was around 6 years old.everytime i did any rough activities or excercise it will bcome worst.i climbed a small hill oso it will be difficult for me to breath,'semput' like what Malay people say.but due to a constant meeting with a good doctor,my sickness was gone already.
But this few years especially in 2005 it came back again.i couldn't breath on certain times.during examination time it became worst.This sickness continued till now and i can't really breath on certain times.These few days it became even worst than i expected.
Today i caught a terrible headache.i hate the headache!!!go away you bastard headache!but after sipping a nice cold soya bean drink it feels better...
Monday, December 1, 2008
the confession of a real man (the finalé)
I Love You
As much as the entire universe exploding,
As much as the waters in every ocean drying,
With my spirit burst,
As much as it spreads outward,
Te quiero.
Mi ke sa rang I tu ci an tu ki ro ki yo so
Mo ma tu cho ke ro han ni ke tu ki ro so
Non sa rang hi an nu ko na ko su mio ong shi na
Na nu kio a sho
Chiam chi su chio ka nu ni kio ni ke ka re so
A pu sa chiom na nen na ke chiop ke hi te
A tu na khan nio sio tu no
Ne ku khan tuo shi kiok shi ni na ha
ps:this stuff totally was said by sumone else and not me.this is the otherside of me,can be equivalent to side project.hehe...
As much as the entire universe exploding,
As much as the waters in every ocean drying,
With my spirit burst,
As much as it spreads outward,
Te quiero.
Mi ke sa rang I tu ci an tu ki ro ki yo so
Mo ma tu cho ke ro han ni ke tu ki ro so
Non sa rang hi an nu ko na ko su mio ong shi na
Na nu kio a sho
Chiam chi su chio ka nu ni kio ni ke ka re so
A pu sa chiom na nen na ke chiop ke hi te
A tu na khan nio sio tu no
Ne ku khan tuo shi kiok shi ni na ha
ps:this stuff totally was said by sumone else and not me.this is the otherside of me,can be equivalent to side project.hehe...
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