Monday, April 6, 2009

Forget Me Forget Me Not

You know how girls sometimes tend to wish that their boyfriend will not be calling them all the times and rather just message?? Well,I am one of the girl that had such wish last time and really really hope that my boyfriend will not be calling me all the time. I am the kind of person who is not so good in talking on the phone as i tend up to be silent for quite sometime if Im out of idea for conversation. But now I guess time change everything and my wish right now is that my boyfriend will call me at least twice or three times in a week.

The problems I am having right now is kinda weird and I'm not sure how to express it to anyone or even to him as I already tried it last time but end up to be another failure. Touché to myself as right now Im having a boyfriend who end up not calling me at all within the week or almost a week(i couldn't remember already as he rarely called me)and not even send me a simple message asking what am I doing or whether I have taken my breakfast,lunch or dinner & etc. I am not asking too much from him but it's enough for me if he just inform me or update me with his condition or just share with me any problems.

This week I tried to ignore the fact that myself was being ignored by my boyfriend but it doesn't seem right. I tried and it works if i workload myself with a bunch of work which will make myself become so busy that I could not even know what day is it today. I have tried calling him just now but there was no answer and all this time if I called him he never pick up his phone once,unless he is in the state im staying,then only he will message me and pick up my call. Don't you think it's kinda weird when your boyfriend acting like that???

Sometimes I'm quite curious with his behaviour but I try not to be curious,jealous and think of something which might probably not true. I tried already and the situation can be said to be tougher than what I expected. This is the guy that I have the feelings that he is the one for me and the one person I will end up spending my lifetime with and he is treating me in this way...touché again to myself. The one hypothetical situation that Im scared would be that he is cheating on me behind my back and cleverly and calmly covering himself up and pretend like he is being super loyal to me when in fact he was actually having another girl with him. Oh goodness! Just talking about it has already make me having such a bad stomachache and give me goosebump. But one thing for sure, if he is really cheating on me I wanna catch him red handed,my ownself! I wanna see his reaction upon being caught lying in front of me.

-the unforgiven-

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