EEE

i like this article , it's really a piece of article that helps me to gain my confidence and not to be so devastated so much after what happend to me last week.don't worry,wat happend to me was nothing much but the side effect of exam which for me i kinda took it seriously.anyway,no need to waste time.this is the link

http://www.myhealth.gov.my/myhealth/bm/kesihatan_mental_content.jsp?lang=mental&storyid=1203581341203&storymaster=1203581341203

that's all.nothing much to talk now.more talking after my finals done.less talking once i get my result.

ciao.

emank gw peduli apa...ya nggak la

ada satu kejadian yg terjadi harini...ada ka patut dia tu (si tut tut) boleh dok layan orang tua ni mcm tu.tak patut tak patut.dua dua ekor pun buat perangai yang sama,sakit betul hati aku dibuatnya.nasib dia rapat dengan aku so aku pikir banyak2 kali dan cuba sabar(sabariah pun tak sabar cam aku).kiranya untuk balas dendam aku buat dono ja kat dua ekor tu.buat kat aku takpala tapi ni buat kat orang yang paling aku sayang plak.nasib dia lagi tua dari aku.dah la malas nak cakap pasal kejadian ni.

ok ok,ni update terbaru..aku ada impian ni la kononnya nak p jakarta independently tapi duit cukup makan ja(tikus betul)tapi tetap berusaha keras nak tambah duit la jugak dalam masa yang sama.aku dah cek dan masa yang aku leh dapat tiket yang paling murah if aku depart on 17jun dan balik 25jun 2010(iyela takkan p 2010 balik tahun depan plak kan,gila).kalu balik awal sangat,mahal.dan kalu balik lambat sangat duit plak dah habis(pfffttt).so in conclusion duration ni adalah yang terbaik punya untuk jejalan ala gembel a.k.a AGP(anak gembel penang :P).

harap harap leh termakbul la harapan untuk ronda ronda jkt nihh...kali terakhir aku memijakkan kakiku di lapangan soekarno hatta adalah sewaktu ku berumur 12tahun(skrg dh lebih tue ye :P).so kiranya dah lama la tak pi sana.kalu plan ni tak jadi jugak aku memang nekad nak spend habis habisan duit ni untuk beli handpon baru ja walau niat ni is before p jkt(bodo,sapa suruh time tu bagi aku sakit hati,padan muka komisen dah miss).so dah nekad geiger muller mmg nak p jakarta oh jakarta dan aim kalu bleh nak cari AFGAN SYAH REZA yang ku puja2(walaupun badan mu kembang tetapi kamu tetap menjadi pojaan hatiku....loph you).

anyway,skarang ni mmg kena fokus pokus untuk final 1 exam aku yang memang dah parah,nazak dan stengah mati ni.tambah2 lagi la kan kitaorang punya lect mmg yang TERBAIK di alam semesta.bukan nak kata aku bagus sangat la tapi dia ni macam takdak fungsi coz dia hanya baca balik apa yang ada kat note ja pun,sebijik macam tape radio..eh eh,sapa yang pakai tape lagi kan,tukar la,macam MP3 yang memainkan lagu yang di save kat dalam tu la and tak perduli kalu ada yang tak paham or tak dengar or confuse.aku dah la selalu tak cepat tangkap and dia ni ada ka patut baca main ikut sedap hati dia ja tanpa toleh tengok kami sikit pun.instead of teaching us dia ajar diri dia sendiri,menyampah sampai buat aku rasa nak tolong mamat indo luar kelas sapu sampah.bila tanya soalan dia suruh kita pi buat research sendiri pulak.bila tanya maksud perkataan yang kitaorang tak paham tau apa jawapan dia ??? "that one you have to look up in your dictionary for the meaning." begok ke apa dia ni.tau la kalu nak tau maksud dia kena cek kamus tapi please deh,sebab kitaorang tanya is bcoz takdak dictionary la time tu...dong!then sebab as a lawyer dan x-law student grad dari Uni kat UNITED KINGDOM dia patut reti la bahasa inggeris yang payah nak mampus ni.tiap kali kena soal dia soal balik kami.dah la tu kami satu kelas memang dah tak leh nak percaya kalu dia kata "im confident" atau "confirm" sebab tiap kali dia cakap macam tu memang pasti SALAH...sewel.kitaorang dalam kelas memang dah blur dia bikin lagi blur sampai dah hilang channel trus,sakit hati.bagai kata gita gutawa dalam lagunya Parasit

" pergi kau ke ujung dunia
dehidrasi di gurun sahara
hilang di segitiga bermuda

pergi kau ke luar angkasa
hipotermia di kutub utara
hilang di samudra antartika
dan jangan kembali..."

ok la,cukup la cerekarama aku takat ni ja.sambung episode lain la.nak tengok ADAMAYA. cerita yang memang sangat best untuk drama series Malaysia!lisa surihani memang standard aku(law student will always support another law student :>)

mencari Afgan (167114)

sudah brapa jam aku surfing internet mencari info tentang afgan tp msh blom ktemu jg...ak akhirnya jd tidak belajar dan tidak ulankaji untuk my tutor class bsok (damn im dead). apa yg aku tau is dia perform esok, 17 March 2010, at Kuala Lumpur. tapi NA waktu dan tempat specific dia akn perform. sakit mata aku dibuatnya sbb surf tlalu lama...berkorban demi afgan.

mudah2an kapan2 afgan bisa dtg lagi ke Malaysia ya...jgn lupa terlalu buanyak afganisme di Malaysia...uncountable!bisa panik afgan dibuatnya.

tau la buat off air tp cek ricek la sama kita yang udah kangen setengah mati ini....hari2 aku GR aku cwek afgan dan ternyata hanya mimpi kosong.masak cewek kagak pnah ktemu sm cwok nya kn....tipikal me.cape ah pura2 jd pacar dia.menanti kedatangannya ke sini aja stengah mati...susah2 aku ke jkt aja cari dia..tunggu ya bln juli aku ke sna.plg2 kta nglewatin satu sm lain.dia ke mana aku ke jkt.bewh.cape deh.

takpe la...kalau dh jodoh tu dan kalau cinta tak ke mana-mana (cewah,lagu si petra :P) pasti ktemu jg kan.mudah2an doaku di perkenankn Allah yang Maha Kuasa ..... Amin!

ps : future sticking AFGANISME plat on my car!gonna be the first AFGANISME to do it in Penang and who knw maybe in Malaysia (woohoo!!!)

Ragam Mu Bikin ku Ngakak

Di saat kau di kaca televisyen
Ku melihat mu
Penuh manis dan tawa girang

Pandangan pertama padamu hanya biasa
Tapi humor mu mencuit hatiku
Menggelikan hatiku
Hatiku bergetar pantas sepantasnya
Bikin ku keringetan

Oh Tuhan tolonglah
Ini pasti satu helah hatiku lagi
Sembuhkannya sebelum terlewat
Jangan biar ia berlarutan
Karna ia hanya mimpi yang tak mungkin

I dunno but maybe i should keep this to myself
Coz like Callait said
I think Im falling for you
Just cure me
Just heal me
No more day dream
Wake me up now and not when september ends

Semoga isi hatiku bisa didengar
Sebagai sebuah dendangan lagu
Yang baitnya cukup indah
Sampai bisa membuat orang jatuh cinta
Terutama dia

-help me to compose tis to song-

Foot Over Heals

fuh fuh fuh .... it hurts everytime i wore high heals. and although it hurt me so much i kinda wear it to make me look tall(im not too tall and im not too short :P)

this is the problem that most of the ladies encounters with for the love of beauty and nobody is helping us to solve this problem because maybe there aren't any,is it?i dunno, i don't invent or design high heals.

this would be my question that was not answered till now,pffftt. sad to think about it.

there's a situation where a girl would willing to bring a spare flip flop in her bag so she can wore it while watching movie and quickly change to heals before the movie ends without her bf knowing it. that is sacrifice.

but good thing about heals would be that it can be a weapon for girls to protect theirself with. it can also be a weapon for the girls to let go of their anger if they ever found out if their boyfriend were cheating on them or if they tried to do funny thing that the girl does not consented to :P

so conclusively,i kinda agree with the saying "beauty is pain" (if im not wrong :D).

-hurtttt-

Being a mean girl

ohya,before anything...i wanna thanks my friend ria for sharing with me one of the most funniest blog i ever visited before but sorry coz i've forgotten the name but the author's name is Icha frm beloved Indonesia.

Here are some of the hottest revenge chat that i had with my x-bf and i intend to continue with this wicked intention as long as i like coz im kinda liking it...so here it goes!

it start with me seeing his status as " Im in love .... "

so i kinda decided on the spot to put some mean girls thought into chatting room :D

then i asked him 'wah,in love with who' and he answered me back 'ehehehe,hye u sihat,katne ni?' awww,how sweet he is(actually im being sacarstic). then ......

gal :heaven :d hows life now
dude:ok la,busy sikit,you?everything ok?(stupidly can asked me this question)...

....so i answered back....
gal :AOK from last time.previously it was the worst especially from feb-march :d (2009-this was the time that im with him,judes bgt yahh ;P)
dude:ehehehe,why?hows ur study?
gal :my study?normal.to be honest much better than feb-march(still being sarcastic)
dude:ok la tu.(showing the sign of a germ type of guy).you know that my family has moved to Ipoh?

......so i sarcasticly answered.....

gal :nope,dont have idea at all coz your missing in action(really being sarcastic,muahaha)
dude:adess,sorry you.i know dat i have made lots of mistake,please forgive me.
gal :of course (by now you all should now already that im being sarcastic everytime i answered him back)
dude:will you forgive me? are u there? you?? (at this moment i was busy liking and commenting my fb photos :P )

and.....

gal :of course.oh ya,tell me bout your latest up-to-date gf.i am all here (try to dig up any juicy info bout him to be more sarcastic than before :d )
dude:hehehe,where got.
gal :ohya,i forgot.
dude:im still single.
gal :always changing partners.sorry,my mistake (aku ngakak/ketawa dikit pas waktu ini)
dude:uisshhh,,,where got.

....and here it goes....

gal :ohya,my mistake again,you didnt and never changed your partners coz ur loyal to all of them (MUAHAHAHA)
dude:adesss
gal : :d
dude:you,what's up with you now? any news that i should know? (he crazily stressed me out now coz he wanting me to be meaner to him which i like)
gal :oh no,im lame.no up-to-date story.

.....this is the fun part.....

dude:ehehehe,really? hows ur parents? ok?
gal :always in a good health to chop off the head those people who hurt their children and the same goes to my bro and he is bringing his clan too if he need so.want me to send regard to them? i've already inform my Indonesian clans and they've prepared all the necessary ammunition to be used.just waiting for that moment to launch it only.

dude:really?what will you get in return? and why me? hehehe (aiyo,this guy really pissed me off till the max la,bagai bom atom meledak ato gunung brapi meledak kea yg d omongin/cakap sm gita gutawa)

gal :just asking...being super concern :d

dude:ehehehe,ok thanx for ur concern.i really appreciate that (-.-") what did i have to do to make you forgive me?

gal :pffttt....mau tanya lagi ka.of course (which continues with NO)
dude:you just tell me what i have to do to make you forgive me?
gal :(i really wanted to ask him to jump off from Penang Bridge but canceled it d) just wait during judgment day coz i already ask from God to give you the worst punishment ever.so what you can do is just wait for it.

dude:why did you really hate me so much?
gal : :d coz i like
dude:ur X-bf before this also hurt you so much,remember? i just vanished for a while (ya of course for 3month..so A WHILE)

.....im suddenly blurred by his statement....

gal :who is my previous X that ur referring too?
dude:before me
gal :that one we broke of with consent of each party and we remained as friends till now (padan muka,he kena straight to his face!bulls eyes!)
dude:really??
gal :ya dude,we still friends till now (begok/bodoh/stupid nya him)

....tried so hard to cover up.....

dude:i thought you told me he just vanished like that (he's referring to himself)
gal :ur really one in a million dude
dude:i know that i am at fault. i am sorry. i want both of us to be ok (amboi,senang betul cakap...sorry dude,sorry seems to be the hardest word)

gal :either you had a short term memory or you either had other disease that i dunno abt.
dude:no hard feelings ya. (OMG,how can i previously fall for him also i tak tau la)
gal :let me be frank,my only x-bf that went missing will be you. (trying to make a point here)

....and upon that he came up with this defence and alibi....

dude:look,i messed up ok,im not perfect,im sorry ok. if ur trying to say that ur perfect then im sorry. i just wanted to apologise to you.

gal :where got a person whom is perfect. but since earlier of our relationship i already told you not to mess with me coz im not a forgiver type of person.

dude:we know each other before. you sounded as if you are perfect. (kalo ak lagi d dpn dia pasti uda d tonjok2/tumbuk muka dia)

gal :im a revenge holder type of person (so as i tell him,again)

dude:i know but after that i still made that effort to search for you. to apologise

gal :if i dont like that person i will tell him and broke off with him and not being a coward and run away and hoping she/he will forget everything just like that.

dude:you...something actually happend...you dont even know what was it..

gal :and here it goes again (coz as i suspected he will use that excuse coz he use it previously to me and he still used that lame defence and alibi)

dude:kereta/mobil i kena pecah tau....handphone i smua hilang,i had to do a new sim card..i asked for memory no but they said i didnt save it so i lost all numbers.i try to call you tapi asyik salah no saje so i sengap/diam...i tunggu u call or message tapi tak ade pun.so??? (see,now he's trying to blame me pulak,shit la this guy)(fyi,i tried to call him but previously he said the number dat he had used was not his number and he borrowed his cousin number so logically i asked him first whether i can called or not and he said it will be his cousin who will answer the phone and not him. previously when i checked and called his 'cousin' number using my other secret number at midnite time,he was the one who answered the phone.) (the reason why he uses his cousin number is because he said to me that his car window being smashed and he lost his phone...ring any bells??it's similar with his defence story right??)

gal :awww...pity you...when you actually lost ur phone? (sarcastic)

dude:eheheh,you dont have to be hypocrite (aw,good person to advise me not to be a hypocrite person) i cant remember when but its last year. if you cant forgive me you just have to tell me.

gal :awwww....

dude:i know how did you feel

gal :tau tak apa....awwwww (laughing out loud)

dude:i just wanted to apologise from you coz i know you for quite long already and i dont want to loose contact with you just because of this (actually i dont mind losing contact with such a weirdo person)

gal :awwwwwwwwww

dude:please you...i dont want to lose everything that we had just because of this.at least i made you happy before (trying to remind me how grateful i should be) you,please you,i know im a bad person and i know that im at fault but the thing is im still a normal person who never run from making mistakes.you?? are you still there?? (im bored of his lame statement and decided to chat with other friends in fb chat room)
gal : >:) course im still here

dude:nevermind,i already explained everything to you and i know if you still want to hate me its your choice,i understand...thanx for everything especially ur time and love. (now i really feel sick of him)

.....and.....

gal : :d of course


and that would be the end of the long lamest situation ever told by me. but that is true,no ayat tokok tambah/added info and im referring this to the chat site im chatting with him. he thought that i can't remember anything is it?

to be honest i tried calling him but end up with no picking-up-phone-situation and please la dont recycle ur defence or excuses.recycling paper,plastic or botols is good but not recycling excuses to me.pffffttt!naik darah aku dibuatnya.

so akhirnya dia pun offline begitu sahaja karna uda ga tahan dia keanya!wahahaha!

i guess he can't stand me being so sarcasticly unforgivable.should sing to him The Unforgiven song by Metallica already.

so tired of those chatting and now decides to lay my head and get some rest.now it is up to the jury to give their verdict (cewah,like court situation pulak).

-never ever-

Fixed it

There's been lots of changes that encounters me this year,like my bro's wedding which i considered as the biggest revelation about something in my life. And I am trying to adapt something which is sort of not myself into myself if I intend to turn out as what they expect me to do so. So my resolution for next year is to finish my degree ASAP.

I intend to change few of my bad habits as far as I can and I really hoped that I will manage to do it,I really wish.

No matter how long I have to wait for him, I will surely waited for him till I know for sure that he have someone else. I don't care and I think now I really understand what does it mean by the saying 'Love is Blind' and yes I agree with it.

There is lots of things that I wanted to say but it's very hard to describe it. I am not sure how to express my feelings. Just forget about telling people coz jotting it down here also was hard enough for me. The reason why I can write right now is becoz I was listening to a very mellow songs. Mellow songs helps me tho to write mellow stuff and to be as mellow as I could.

Suddenly feels like writing down a poem, maybe poem is the best method to express yourself out and people will have to feel it to know the meaning,cool rite?

I feel like flying,
With birds and angels following me,
As high and as free as I can go,
Wishing that sorrowness will fade away
Wishing that I could reach him
and wishing that he could saw me.

And as I fly,
Rain starts to fall,
Too heavy I guess for the clouds to handle.

The wind blew the clouds away,
There's no more rain
But thunder do strike few times
Scaring few crows on the 'bushy' trees.

The soul that is flying feels like landing
But unsure of it's position
Where could it be?
Will the soul found her body?
Will the soul be together with her body she wanted too?
There's too much question
But there is no answer.

The soul fly high again
Determine to find 'it' as what the other fellow birds told
And the soul depart with jukebox feelings
Wishing again the end will be better
And ended with a fairy tale.

-unrest soul-