There's been lots of changes that encounters me this year,like my bro's wedding which i considered as the biggest revelation about something in my life. And I am trying to adapt something which is sort of not myself into myself if I intend to turn out as what they expect me to do so. So my resolution for next year is to finish my degree ASAP.
I intend to change few of my bad habits as far as I can and I really hoped that I will manage to do it,I really wish.
No matter how long I have to wait for him, I will surely waited for him till I know for sure that he have someone else. I don't care and I think now I really understand what does it mean by the saying 'Love is Blind' and yes I agree with it.
There is lots of things that I wanted to say but it's very hard to describe it. I am not sure how to express my feelings. Just forget about telling people coz jotting it down here also was hard enough for me. The reason why I can write right now is becoz I was listening to a very mellow songs. Mellow songs helps me tho to write mellow stuff and to be as mellow as I could.
Suddenly feels like writing down a poem, maybe poem is the best method to express yourself out and people will have to feel it to know the meaning,cool rite?
I feel like flying,
With birds and angels following me,
As high and as free as I can go,
Wishing that sorrowness will fade away
Wishing that I could reach him
and wishing that he could saw me.
And as I fly,
Rain starts to fall,
Too heavy I guess for the clouds to handle.
The wind blew the clouds away,
There's no more rain
But thunder do strike few times
Scaring few crows on the 'bushy' trees.
The soul that is flying feels like landing
But unsure of it's position
Where could it be?
Will the soul found her body?
Will the soul be together with her body she wanted too?
There's too much question
But there is no answer.
The soul fly high again
Determine to find 'it' as what the other fellow birds told
And the soul depart with jukebox feelings
Wishing again the end will be better
And ended with a fairy tale.
-unrest soul-
